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Name: Courtnie
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Metro: Little Rock
Birthday: 7/30/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Hobbies:Singing, writing songs and poems, reading and writing fanfics. Listening to music, mostly rock, and mostly Evanescence. Sharp objects are cool too.
Expertise: Singing, writing songs and poems, attempting to play the keyboard. Music
Occupation: Student
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  fionaangel1
Yahoo:  amyleecrazedfan
Member Since:
4/3/2005
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| So.
I did not get the dimple piercings... I did get snakebites. but I had a dental abcess and had to go to the ER and get xrays so... those had to go.
I graduated from High School on May 20, 2008.
I turned 18 on July 30, 2008 and bought Breaking Dawn August 2, 2008 at midnight.
I'm not going to college. At the moment, at least.
I'm taking a year off so I can get a job, save money, and finally choose a career. There are just way too many things that I could do. Fucking ambition.
Careers Fiona would like to pursue:
1. Pastry chef
2. Surgical Technician
3. Music Teacher
4. Book editor
5. Psychologist
6. Voice over actress
Yeah. Too ambitious.
And now I'm really bummed..... I just found out that Stephenie Meyer is really upset that Midnight Sun partial draft was released.... and has put the project on hold indefinitely.
I only take a bit of hope in the word "indefinitely". It means, unsure of when or if the prject will be picked back up.
I'm hoping she does pick it back up.
I'm not gonna lie, I downloaded and read the copy. I know it's not what I should've done and I'm not gonna try to justify my reading it, but I LOVED it.
Those were the best 12 chapters of something I've read in a while. It even beat Breaking Dawn.
The way Edward reacted to everything and thought was so different from what I imagined. He's still a stalker to me, but he admits it... so that's alright.
I understand why Stephenie is upset. Someone betrayed her trust and posted those chapters and that's wrong.
I just hope Stephenie sees that so many people have read and loved Midnight Sun so she picks the project back up. | | |
| I'm getting me some dimple piercings on Wednesday!
It's a holiday present.
For those who don't know what dimples are....
They're the piercings in Pixie's cheeks....
I think the piercing is cute. so.. chyeah!
I'm excited! | | |
| This is an article explaining exactly what Displace Me is.
When Hurricane Katrina hit this country, we saw for the first time what a displaced American looks like. Now we’re asking you to voluntarily become displaced, leaving the comforts of your homes, to imagine for 24 hours what it’s like for the millions of people in Northern Uganda who have been displaced for more than ten years.
What is a displaced camp?
The Lord’s Resistance Army (LRA) has abducted thousands of children, subjected them to torture or sexual violence and forced them to fight in a violent guerilla army for 21 years—making it the longest running war in Africa. In hopes of providing protection from this rebel militia, the Ugandan government forcibly evicted its Northern citizens from their homes—giving them 48 hours to relocate into camps. Today, more than 1.5 million Northern Ugandans remain far from secure, suffering nearly 1,000 deaths per week due to inhumane living conditions in the camps.
Alcoholism, sexual abuse, HIV/AIDS, inadequate sanitation and lack of education have caused immeasurable damage to two generations and the near-total destruction of Acholi culture. Water is scarce and people are reliant on food to be delivered by foreign aid. If the food isn’t delivered, the people starve. This April, the already meager rations delivered by the World Food Program to the camps will be cut in half due to lack of funding—with school feeding programs and support for HIV/aids victims soon to follow. This will indisputably increase the number of deaths among those already suffering from severe malnutrition—mostly among women, children and the elderly. That is why the timing of this event, and your participation are so crucial.
“Displace Me” is the nationwide event giving Americans the chance to respond.
By traveling to one of our 15 camps and gathering together, the strength of our size will make a visible statement to our government and media that the citizens of the U.S. demand action in ending the war in Northern Uganda, in order to send the Acholi people suffering in the camps and the abducted children back home. The point is to travel; the point is to become displaced yourself.
Saturday, April 28, 2007 say “Displace Me” and leave your homes to bring them home.
Video By Pete Wentz of FOB:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wX5vl3eYKhI
Link to Displace Me:
http://www.invisiblechildren.com/displaceMe/
Link to Invisible Children:
http://www.invisiblechildren.com/home.php | | |
| Yeah. So..... I went to the Zoo today.. that was fun.
Well, on our way home I figured we could go to the mall and such and do a bit of shopping because I am in desperate need of clothes. No seriously... I am.
So anywhom. We go to the mall.... I basically go there to flirt with Willie, hot guy who works there and yeah... so, I digress. I chill, look around. Have fun.
We head to Target and Wal-Mart. BLOODY HELL!!! There are NO clothes, that are actually cute at those places. Fucking fashion designers have NO clue how to design clothes for fat people because they're all skinny!!
Tips From A Plus-Sized Girl To Fashion Designers:
1) Empire waists are a NO-NO!!! All they do is make us look like we're pregnant. And when you're sixteen and go to my school, people can and will ask if you are. Usually, a person would be. anywhom
2) Belts that go under our boobs, are BAD! They are for skinny people, not someone who wears size 16+. The belt does not flaunt our curves, it just makes us look more... round. The only people above size 16 that should wear these belts are people with well defined waists(isn't it obvious?)
3) Short skirts/skorts/shorts are HORRIBLE!!! Who's bright idea was it to make a denim miniskirt in size 18?! If you have nice legs and a nice butt, I can see you wearing a miniskirt, but other words, all we're going to do, is get made fun of.
4) Shirts with an elastic band at the bottom, around the waist are NOT good! These just makes our fat stick out more.
5) Just because we're fat, doesn't mean we don't want to look sexy! Make plus-sized clothes out of something other than ugly ass floral print and jeans with elastic waist bands. Believe it or not we can zip, zippers, and button buttons. If it is necessary, then make the jeans with elastic bands cuter, not just synthetic denim that's cheap to produce.
6) Clothes that are tight are NOT good! I'm talking about the clothes that are mean to stick to your body, I'm talking about the clothes that are made of this crappy fabric that just sticks to your body for no reason.
7) Jeans that are low-rise, should not be made. Some girls can fit in these and look really cute, but please! We don't want to be bending down to pick up something and worry about people seeing our cracks.
8) Clothes at Hot-Topic are really cute, and should be made in plus-sized. Clothes at Target are cute, and should be made in Plus-sized, I'm talking about the Juniors sections. Why do we have to look like dogs just because designers don't bloody know how to design for us?!
Alright. That's my rant. I don't know. It just really bugs me that if I want anything uber cute that doesn't make me look fatter, pregnant, or like a dog, I have to go out of state or get it off the internet.
I think I should start designing clothes..... Like I design some dresses.. but. I just don't know how to go about it.
If I designed plus-sized clothes, it would all sell great. At least for women. Don't know nothing about mens clothing... | | |
| I'm sorry I'm not good enough for your standards!
I'm sorry I'm emotional, and my temperament is shorter than a fuse!
I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough for you.
I'm sorry I'm not beautiful enough for you to love me.
I'm sorry that I'm not intelligent enough to seem mentally competent!
I'm sorry I have so many problems.
I'm sorry I'm so pathetic!!
<3 Fiona <3
A poem/vent that I had a few nights ago... I know... emo. Whatever, I get it.
I can't help that sometimes I have a few problems. Sometimes, I do need to vent a little rage. Sometimes... I just would like to be told that I am appreciated and that you do want me as a friend.
Sometimes... I would like to be human and cry in the middle of class, or scream, or laugh, for no reason, and not be looked at as if I were insane.
Sometimes, I feel like I'm on the edge of a knife. I'm either going to fall one way or the other. I'm either alive or dead, on any given day. Today, I think I was alive. I'm either happy or sad, somedays. Today was a happy day. I'm either loved or ignored, any day. Today... like so often, I felt ignored
Maybe I need to cut myself for attention. And maybe, just maybe, I need to act bitchy for someone to noticed me. And you know what, sometimes I have to be snobbish and show off what I got that weekend so that I be shown at least a little admiration.
I'm not a psychic. But I can read your minds. I know what you're thinking when you look at me. If there isn't a person around but me, it's alright to come and chat for a few minutes with me, but when someone comes, it's time for you to go. This says to me, "Hey, you're cool to talk with.... but only when there is no one better to occupy my time."
When you smile at me suddenly in class, at the mall, etc., I know that you are thinking: "Gee, it's so sad how she's sitting there alone, yet it seems that she's sitting right next to friends."
When I'm reading my book, and you are staring at me, but as soon as I look up and you look away, there are two possible things you are thinking. 1) "Wow, she must really like to read, she does it all the time. She must not have many friends." or 2) "Hmm.. she's kind of pretty." Always the 1st option
There are more, and I know what you are thinking. I don't have to analyze every single move you make... just the ones that I know account for something. And when you think I can't see you, trust me, I do. I'm neither stupid, nor blind.
Do me a favour. Don't pity me...... if you feel bad for me, come and say, "Hello... how are you? What book are you reading? etc." If it's a good day, I'll be really nice and I might just actually want to be your friend. If it's a bad day, and don't say I haven't warned you, I may sneer, and be a little rude.
I can't help it. I wish I could.. but I can't.... I don't know how to control my emotions. It's just too damned hard.
Moral of the story, just.... care. Be my friend if you are my friend, not my "friend."
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